Monday, June 27, 2011

so many titles for this post...

It's me cancer, I'm back! How your life can change in an instant. 1 week post surgery. Never trust cancer...
all of these work, but especially the last one. I was supposed to be "clean", so said my April scan. But the cancer was most likely there, masquerading as a part of my colon. I didn't feel symptoms until it became large enough. I'd say 1/2 a grapefruit pushing between my vagina and colon would do it. 
I went to the emergency room last Friday with symptoms, and after a CT scan, they admitted me. I stayed the weekend on pain meds, drinking bowel prep and eating nothing. Nothing. After 3 days of eating light anyway. Monday morning they wheeled me into surgery. My daughter recounts me saying "keep your fingers crossed", and the nurse responding with "that will only cramp your fingers, praying works much better". I have to agree! Six hours later they wheeled me out. Minus one 10 x 6 cm tumor, 2 lymph nodes and a shorter colon, but no bag needed, thank you Lord and Dr. J both. 
I am so grateful for my exemplary doctors and nurses. You are totally in their care. Half the time, at least the time under or coming out of anesthesia,  you don't really have a clue whats going on. Ask my family about that. There's that crazy time when you're inbetween anesthesia and pain meds and not in the real world. I had some scary narcotic dreams then... so vivid and zany. I was almost afraid to go back to sleep for where I'd go. 
As for the nurses, they are deserving of their own post, I've got a lot to recount about them. 
And my family... my support system, my rock, my strength. Thank you. I love you all more than life itself. Thank you for being by my side through all of it. I went to the emergency room that Friday thinking I would have some sort of procedure and be out by late afternoon, so I didn't even tell anyone I went in. I knew when I called my husband I wouldn't be able to get the words out w/o tears. "I have a mass" I repeated since I'm quite sure my first high pitched attempt was inaudible. He was there with me w/in 30 minutes and has been by my side ever since. He is a wonderful caregiver, the best nurse you could ever ask for. I am so grateful to be surrounded by family love. All my daughters, my sils and my grandsons are here. That's why I heal so fast... it's the love from all of them, it's the best medicine! xoxo


  1. Sounds like good news - if that is possible. Hang in there!

  2. You are such a fighter momma. YOU are the rock!! Keep fighting and keep praying. We love you xoxox

  3. Hope all went well and good test results come back.

  4. I have been waiting to hear. So glad you have such a wonderful group of people who are hopelessly in love with you!! Prayers for you. Keep us posted. XOXO

  5. Kel's right - you are the rock! We are happy to rally around you for all that you've done in our lives. We love you so much!!

  6. Oh my! I am so sorry to read this but hopeful things will be better from now on. Adding you to my prayer list. As I've said for so long, you my friend, are a warrior. Keep up the good fight. Love will bring you a long way to healing. xoxo


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