My Christmas preparations are a bit overshadowed this year. I've run out of time. This Thursday I go in for lung surgery, VATS, to get rid of
a second metastatic nodule. The same surgery I had last year on November 30th. I was a lot more prepared last year though, both for Christmas and for the surgery. After the "watch and wait" mentality of the past 10 months, I guess I just can't get my heart around doing it, especially now at this more than busy time of the year. I wish we were back in the summer and doing it then. But time has moved on, and "it's time" for it to come out. Since we made that decision I've done a really good job of distracting myself... between kitchen planning, Halloween and Thanksgiving, and most recently apartment shopping and moving GradGirl back to Atlanta. Now it's December 1st and time's up. My pre-op is tomorrow and the surgery the day after. My house is undecorated, my cards unordered and my shopping half done. I'll hopefully get back to all of that in a week or two. But for now, I need to take a little time for myself.
My Christmas wish is to be cancer free and to be healthy. Not something I'll find under the tree. My wish is for the surgery to go well, to recover to good health, and to be able to breathe fully. That's what I'm asking for, that's what I'm praying for. My wish is for God to hear my prayers.
that is my wish, too! you are in my thoughts and prayers today as you get ready for tomorrow. i know it's not ideal timing, but you'll get through it and just know we're all here for you. love you mama!! xoxo
ReplyDeleteHe's listening momma and we're all praying for you. We're here to help out too-- you are never alone!! We love you more than words and are praying that "third time's a charm..."
ReplyDeleteSandy, I've been thinking about you and I'm praying that you will come through this just fine and be cancer-free. Rest today and don't worry about your house! I think Kelly needs to get Santa's elves on that job.
ReplyDeleteI am praying for you to be healthy and strong.
ReplyDeletePraying for you Sandy. No one will care about all of the "stuff" - You are the only concern. You are the best gift a family can have. XOXO
ReplyDeleteBeen thinking about you a lot lately and I will continue to pray. It is time for YOU. Your body needs you ALL your strength and positive thinking. Hang in there and "hang back." You have so many people who love you!
ReplyDeleteA new year is around the corner and it's going to be a great one for you. I just know it. :o)
It is my wish and prayer for you too! You remain in the weekly prayer book and in my thoughts. I am am with Heather; I have this feeling that the new year is going to be a good one - a healthy one - for you.
ReplyDeleteGodspeed, my friend.
xoxox
Colleen
well Becky... those sweet elves did come to my house while I was in the hospital. The tree is up, the mantels decorated and the stockings hung! All the decorations are out and the house looks great! I love those elves ;-)
ReplyDeleteI'm praying for you, my friend — and you've got an angel looking after you, too.
ReplyDeleteThings changed all too quickly and Mr. J went to Halfglassistan's annex in Heaven on Nov. 1. My glass may be forever half-full now, but I do know he's left it the best half.
Much love and many prayers to you and your family. :-)
Now I am so upset to think that by not keeping up with my friends, I missed this! (I did tell you I was reading old posts;). Please forgive me! And here I complained on your blog about a "tough" Christmas when it was nothing like you've been through. I'm so sorry you had to go through this once again. I pray it is the last time and only sunny, HEALTHY days are ahead for you. I wish for you...for all of us a happier New Year, although what could be much happier than your adorable Carter;)
ReplyDeleteGod Bless,
Suzanne